Hey y’all!
At the end of this month, it’ll be 6 months of me being consistently back on the blog. I am so proud of myself. Sometimes I tell myself I am going to be consistent about a thing and then I let my flame burn out quickly. Instead of going all or nothing with my writing, I am letting it just happen. If it doesn’t happen every single day or week, that’s okay. As long as I keep on pushing forward, I am happy. Here we are, almost 6 months since my time in Santa Fe and *almost* 50 subscribers get my regular-ish emails. Thank you for reading, thank you for sending me feedback, thank you for letting me know that my words meant something to you, made you laugh, or feel a thing. It is always appreciated, and I am honored that what I think are my silly little thoughts resonate with others.
For today…
I’m still riding my spring is coming wave, I know we all felt that spring forward. Yeah, it woke me up around 4:30am-ish. As I was scrolling the interwebs there were a couple of posts that caught my eye. I want to talk about it. This is a note to self and anyone else.
Does anyone else have a graveyard full of screenshots that you swear you’re going to do something with? How about those aspirations to organize those albums you have? Maybe delete some of those memories that Apple so kindly turns into an album of moments you’d rather leave in the past, maybe it triggers something or makes you a bit sad. I hate when that happens. Today, I’m taking two recent screenshots and sharing them while I ramble a bit.
🌟 (that’s for me)
Okay, first up is this one, from some faceless instagram account. I’m not sure who actually said but I needed to see this and maybe you do too.
There are so many times throughout the day where I think back on the mistakes I’ve made or think about where I should’ve done something completely different than what I did. The times where I should’ve walked away from a situation sooner, not procrastinated so much, or where I didn’t speak my mind soon enough. It sucks because the what ifs, should’ves, could’ves, and would’ves all mess with you. They are so sneaky. Making you think that the actions taken would’ve just made everything better. An express trip on the train with stops straight to guilt, shame, and defeat. Truth is, you’ll never know that.
Oftentimes, there are things that don’t make sense in the moment. It could be years before you understand why life has happened the way it has. I’m sure there are some things you’ll never understand. What I know for sure is that life will continue to work its way out. I have to remind myself to not lean on my own understanding. We all have different beliefs out here, I respect it. Most can agree there’s a higher power out here, doing work that on some days you can’t even fathom how things worked the way they do. One thing that sticks with me, even when I don’t always feel like it’s true is that God is working on the next act. Even when things feel like they will never change, the next parts of life are already written, they are going to continue to unfold just as they should. Sometimes, you may be rerouting a bit, and the scenic route is everything you didn’t know you needed.
It’s easier to say and write that down than it is to be in the reality of some of the crappity things thrown your way. Don’t forget that sometimes you have to take a deep breath and ground yourself. Remind yourself that there are is a lot of goodness happening for and around you. Even when the circumstances aren’t ideal, you have breath in your lungs along with the capacity to start evoking change. Yeah, you have to put in that work. Sometimes you may be tired from trying to move things forward, take a break but don’t stop.
Things are figureoutable.
The mistakes we’ve made over the years make up the wonderful human you are. One of the best parts, you can introduce a plot twist whenever you’re ready. Those building blocks of all of the things that felt like failures make for a wonderful foundation.
We can begin again
Could be from the very start, could be something you’re picking back up to continue. Define it how you want. There’s nothing wrong with beginning again. Sometimes a fresh start resets the stage just how you need to allow for the best outcomes.
Spring shows rebirth, from the little buds on the trees to ourselves. Who said you’re stuck where you are?!
Exactly
Now, I know there’s levels to it. There may be uncertainty or obstacles that don’t allow you to feel like you can get ahead in this race. Those things don’t go unnoticed, and I don’t want to overshadow that with a hefty dump of positivity, I want to just acknowledge and remind you that is okay to start again.
The seasons do it every year and we never get tired of it. Maybe the snow, but you can relocate to avoid that 😂
You’re not too old, it’s not too late to turn the page.
A fresh blank sheet to keep on writing the story of your life.
Deep breath, it’s going to be just fine. Don’t let this Sunday be too scary, ok?
xo,
Ashley
So proud of you for sticking with it! I can’t believe it’s been 6 months already!!